Three days ago, my bathroom started leaking.
It was a slow drip that grew faster with every hour. It started just before midnight, when the house was too quiet, and I was too aware of the silence Benjamin left behind.
Three days ago, my bathroom started leaking.
The pipe was tucked into the corner under the sink. I tried a towel, then a second one. I consulted Google and YouTube, and then found myself on some obscure Reddit forum where someone named PipeWitch1979 suggested wrapping a leaking pipe with an old bed sheet and duct tape.
“Sounds like… science,” I muttered. “Let’s do it, Simone.”
It still leaked.
“Let’s do it, Simone.”
My husband would’ve fixed it. He would have done it quickly, calmly, and without being asked.
But Benjamin was somewhere over the ocean again. This time it was Sydney or Singapore; he’d stopped correcting me months ago.
I called him anyway, but it went straight to voicemail.
“Come on, Ben,” I muttered. “Where are you when I need you most?”
But Benjamin was somewhere over the ocean again.
So, I texted him instead:
“Bathroom’s leaking again, Ben. Miss you. Can’t wait for you to come back home soon.”
He didn’t read it.
But I was desperate, so I did something I’ve never done before: I posted in the building chat.
“Hi, it’s Simone! Is anyone awake and familiar with plumbing? I have a leak and it’s getting worse.”
He didn’t read it.
I wasn’t expecting a reply. But when my phone buzzed a few minutes later, I saw that Jake from the second floor had replied.
“I can come up, Simone. No worries. What number are you again?”
Jake.
He was the neighbor I’d seen maybe four or five times in the elevator. He was tall and broad-shouldered, his expression unreadable. He was the kind of man who always wore long sleeves, even in heatwaves. I couldn’t recall if we’d ever spoken before.
I wasn’t expecting a reply.
“Third floor, door 9. Thanks, Jake! I really appreciate it.”
Jake arrived in under 10 minutes with a black tool kit and nodded once before stepping inside. He didn’t offer any small talk or smiles. He just walked into the bathroom, found the leak, and got to work.
He didn’t say much.
When I asked if he needed anything, he said, “No. Just space.” When I offered him some tea, he shook his head.
He just walked into the bathroom, found the leak, and got to work.
He worked with a kind of intensity I hadn’t seen in years, not in Benjamin, not in anyone. It made me feel strange and… small, somehow. Like maybe I’d forgotten what it felt like to be taken seriously.
Fifteen minutes later, the leak was gone. It was like it had never happened, like I’d made it up with my own loneliness.
Jake stood, wiped his hands on a cloth, and finally spoke.
Fifteen minutes later, the leak was gone.
“If it drips again, call me. Not the landlord; that will take too long. And I know what I’m doing.”
I didn’t ask why. I didn’t ask how he knew to do it. I didn’t ask anything.
Then he left, forgetting his pliers on the bathroom counter.
“If it drips again, call me. Not the landlord; that will take too long. And I know what I’m doing.”
The next morning, I grabbed them from the counter. They were heavy and worn, clearly used for more than one rescue mission. I held them longer than I should have.
They didn’t belong here. But lately, neither did I.
I meant to return them immediately. But I waited. Something about that night sat with me longer than I expected. It wasn’t just the silence or the leak. Jake’s presence had left a mark.
They didn’t belong here. But lately, neither did I.
It was the way he fixed things without fanfare, without asking what I had tried, and without acting like I’d done it wrong.
It made me feel something I couldn’t name. It wasn’t attraction… it wasn’t longing. It was something much quieter. Maybe it was the realization that I had stopped expecting to be helped.
The next time my husband called, it was three days later. His voice was cheerful, tired, and very distracted.
It wasn’t attraction… it wasn’t longing.
“Flight got delayed again, Sim,” he said. “You good?”
“The bathroom’s fine now.”
“Great, you figured it out by yourself? Well done.”
“Flight got delayed again, Sim.”
“No, Benjamin. I asked a neighbor for help. I posted it in the building chat.”
There was a pause.
“I didn’t see that. But that’s nice… of them.”
There was nothing more to say after that. I didn’t tell my husband the neighbor’s name. I didn’t tell him the pliers were still on our counter.
“I asked a neighbor for help.”
And I sure as heck didn’t ask if he still missed me, or if he noticed the difference between silence and distance.
Later that afternoon, I finally picked up the pliers, slipped on a pair of sandals, and walked two flights down. Jake’s door was slightly ajar. I hesitated, then knocked lightly.
The door opened wider.
I hesitated, then knocked lightly.
Inside, I saw… everything:
A framed photo turned facedown on the hallway table. A pale pink cardigan draped over a chair. A clear coffee mug full of hair ties, and a silver ring on the hallway table, next to a melted white candle.
None of it should’ve mattered. But something about the way the room felt — the silence, the untouched clutter — it stirred something in me. I hadn’t even crossed the threshold, but my knees gave out like my body knew something before I did.
The pliers slipped from my hands and hit the floor.
A framed photo turned facedown on the hallway table.
Jake stepped into view.
“Simone?” he asked, frowning. “What’s going on?”
I stared past him, at nothing and everything.
“What’s going on?”
What was I even doing here? Returning tools like it meant something? Like I meant something?
Goodness, Simone, I thought, you’re such a mess.
I shouted the words before I could even process my thoughts.
“What does it all mean?!”
“What?” Jake asked, blinking slowly. “What does what… mean?”
I shouted the words before I could even process my thoughts.
I looked at him, breathless.
“I don’t know. I don’t know what I’m doing, Jake. I don’t know why I came. I haven’t felt like myself in months, maybe longer. And then you showed up and fixed something I couldn’t, and now I’m standing in your doorway losing my mind because I saw a ring in a dish?”
He didn’t move.
“Why am I the only one falling apart?” I whispered. “And why do I feel safer in your hallway than I do in my own marriage?”
“I don’t know. I don’t know what I’m doing, Jake.”
Jake didn’t ask questions. He didn’t try to fix this — me. He just stepped aside.
“Come in, Simone,” he said quietly.
And I did.
I sat on the edge of his couch, legs still shaking, fingers clenched around my knees. Jake walked into the kitchen. He moved deliberately and quietly, making the room feel even more still.
He just stepped aside.
His apartment smelled faintly of orange peel and something older, like coffee that had gone cold days ago. It wasn’t messy, but it didn’t feel lived in either. It felt… paused.
He came back and handed me a glass of water.
“You okay?”
I let the question sit. Then I shook my head.
It felt… paused.
“No. Not even close.”
He didn’t push me.
“I used to think I was strong. And independent. I made coffee for two for years, even when Benjamin wasn’t home. I told myself that meant something, you know?”
Jake leaned against the wall but stayed silent.
He didn’t push me.
“I’m 33,” I added. “And I still fold his laundry like he’s going to notice my effort. But I don’t think he even sees me anymore.”
Jake’s voice came low.
“When did you start feeling that way, Simone?”
“I don’t know. Slowly… over time? And then all at once. I think he’s seeing someone else.”
“But I don’t think he even sees me anymore.”
“You’re sure about that? That’s a big… assumption.”
“No, I’m not sure about anything, Jake. But I don’t think I need to be. The absences… they feel full now. Like someone else is standing in them.”
“I used to live with someone too, Simone.”
“The woman in the photo?”
He nodded.
“I used to live with someone too, Simone.”
“What happened to her?”
“She died. It was a car accident a little while ago. She was 31.”
“I’m so sorry,” I said, swallowing.
He nodded again, and I looked down at my hands. They were trembling, still.
“I don’t think Benjamin’s going to leave me,” I whispered. “Not in the divorce sense. But he has left nonetheless… quietly. Over the years. You get me?”
He nodded again, and I looked down at my hands.
Jake walked over and sat on the floor across from me, leaning back against the cabinet.
“Sometimes people don’t leave because they don’t care,” he said. “They just don’t know how to stay.”
That cracked something open in me.
“I just want someone to stay,” I said softly. “Even if they’re scared.”
“Sometimes people don’t leave because they don’t care.”
We talked longer than I expected.
I asked him about the apartment, his work, and his tools. He used to be an engineer but left after the accident.
“It was quiet, but not quiet enough.”
“You don’t seem like someone who talks much,” I said.
“I’m not. But you’re not someone who asks for help easily either.”
We talked longer than I expected.
That made me laugh softly.
“I used to. I used to be the kind of person who wanted to be seen. I don’t know what happened.”
“You still are, Simone. You’re here, aren’t you?” he said, tilting his head.
“Then why do I feel like I’m only visible when something breaks?”
He didn’t answer right away. He just looked at me like he was trying to find the right edge to a delicate truth.
“I used to be the kind of person who wanted to be seen.”
“Because you’ve spent too long shrinking just to fit inside someone else’s outline.”
The words hit me like a bruise I didn’t know I had.
“You don’t say much,” I murmured. “But when you do, it cuts.”
When I stood up to leave, the light was softer, golden. The city outside had started to hum again. Jake picked up the pliers and tucked them into a drawer.
The words hit me like a bruise I didn’t know I had.
At the door, I paused.
“You don’t have to check on me,” I said. “I’m not going to fall apart. But thank you for saving my bathroom.”
“I know,” he replied. “But if you do, you can sit here again.”
“Why?”
He looked at me like it was obvious.
“But thank you for saving my bathroom.”
“Because no one should have to come back to themselves… alone.”
I walked upstairs slowly, barefoot now, sandals dangling from my fingers. According to a text from my husband, he’d be home in a few days — that could have meant anything from two to six days. He hadn’t confirmed. He rarely did anymore.
And I was tired of pretending that didn’t mean something.
He hadn’t confirmed. He rarely did anymore.
The apartment greeted me in silence. I flipped the bedroom light switch, then changed my mind and turned it off again.
The darkness felt more honest.
As I crawled into bed, I stared at the ceiling, covers barely pulled up, the water glass still on the bedside table from three nights ago.
The darkness felt more honest.
My phone lit up with a text:
“Flight’s delayed again. I’ll keep you posted.”
That was it. I held the phone for a second, then put it face down.
“I don’t think I know how to come back from this,” I whispered out loud.
That was it.
The room didn’t answer. But I could hear Jake’s voice from earlier:
“Because no one should have to come back to themselves… alone.”
I pressed my hand to my chest. Just to feel it — the ache, the beat, the stubbornness of it still trying. And then I said it again.
This time not like a joke, not like a breakdown, but just as a woman asking the question she’s been avoiding for years.
I pressed my hand to my chest.
“What does it all mean?”
And in the silence, something inside me didn’t flinch. Maybe it meant I was finally asking. Maybe it meant I wasn’t afraid to know.
Maybe I was allowed to want more — comfort, love, and joy — without apologizing.
And maybe, finally, that was enough.
Maybe it meant I was finally asking.